I have always thought of myself as tough. Physically able to throw around salt bags, move furniture and basically find a way to make it work. Now, I am learning to be emotionally tough{er}. A little over 2 weeks ago, I went to the doctor knowing something was wrong. Feeling it deep down. I had feelings it was cancer again ... some of those feelings you just can't shake. But the oncologist had assured me 5 years ago that after 10 years I was cured. And that my chances of Cancer were the same as everyone else's. But true to my form, I defy the odds. I have the crazy diagnosis. I surprise people. And that's what happened ... 15 1/2 years later it was the same kind. The same cancer that I beat when I was 17 years old. I can talk about the medical and the facts all day long. That's easy. It's the emotional ... The real ... that's hard to discuss. I consider myself a pretty positive person. But this news was devastating. For about 36 hrs, I was scared, sad, and just plain mad. But you know what? Life is tough, my darling, but so are you.
I want to share my journey. I want to show people life is tough, but you can be tougher.
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